Day 5th and 6th: Sometimes everything just go wrong. And does business kill art?

Hi guys,

Yesterday and today were rainy days in London. Personally, my mood and motivation depend on weather a lot. This is how I work: a little sun outside and my face is bright with huge smile, but when outside it’s gray and it’s raining, the only thing I want to do is sleeping. Of course I can’t afford to sleep whole day, so I just carried on in zombie mode (thought for today: person who invented coffee should be called a hero).

And even if today I felt a bit more motivated and work seemed easier, yesterday I’ve checked some activities on my goal’s list as well. Unfortunatelly, my router decided, that he is not going to work either. Well, sometimes happen. That’s why today’s post is a combination of two days.

Today I am not going to bore you with any thoughts or something. It could spoil your mood (which I hope is great at the moment 😉 ). But I’ve decided to add one more point to my goal list and this is what I am going to tell you about.

But first, let me start with some explanation. As you may know, I’ve started this blog to get some more motivation, some short term reward for my work (which is possibility to write about this in my post and share with you). But of course when you get same reward every day, it becomes your routine and you are not waiting for this any more (it haven’t happen to me yet, but possibly can in the future). And here comes greatness of my blog: if the other day I will decide just to let my time go by without doing anything, I won’t have anything to write about. And this will become huge punishment for me. I am going to have this feeling, that something is missing. That I haven’t done something, what is such a fun for me. And this keeps me going. Even if I’ve started less than a week ago, this blog became my weapon in hard war with procrastination.

Even yesterday, when I finished my post and I’ve failed with posting it here, I felt that something I am actually waiting for isn’t going to happen. And I’ve understood, how important this blog already is for me.

So what I intend to do is to give some love to this. Make it more valuable for you. So I decided to do more things: first of them is to keep adding one motivational quote every month (I have two already, very important to me – but those quote’s stories I’ll tell you in one of the future posts). Second thing is, that I am going to add one review of self-development connected book every two weekes (not exactly review, just main points of book. Why? I think, self-development is very personal thing and something what does work for me, might not work for others and reverse). First book-post is going to appear on my blog on Sunday 28th of May. I hope you are going to like it. I haven’t choosen any particular title yet, but I am going to have a look and pick something 😉

Ok, previous part was just edited post from yesterday. And I’ve changed my mind. I’ll share one thought with you. Something what is sitting in back of my head, deeply inside. One simple question: does business kill art and some kind of sensitivity needed to actually do something creative (whatever kind of art we are talking about)?

Let’s take writters for example. Many times I’ve read book, which blew my mind. I just couldn’t belive, how someone can write something so good, how is it possible? Author is selling huge amout of copies and you just can’t wait till next part will be finished. Every day you are thinking, when I can read it? When it’s going to be published?

And finally this day comes. Next part is avaiable in every bookshop and you are first in long long queue to get it. You can’t resist and you start reading on the way back home. First chapter, second and the other one. Wait… Something’s wrong… You read next chapter, and next. But still, something is missing. Is it the style of writting? No… Story doesn’t seem to be interesting. It looks like all misery, unexpected situations, which were happening in first part are gone now. You are able to predict what is going to happen in next scene, it’s just too simple.

How do you feel? Well… disappointed? And your thinking proccess cannot stop. What’s happened? How it’s possible, that such a good writer, wrote something like… this?

But whatever happened, is past now. You’ve even started to forget. Your brain works again, thinking about regular, everyday’s stuff. But some time after you see interview on TV or you just read it in newspaper. Your author, being interviewed. Memories come back, you want to know, what he has to say as an explanation.

Itroduction. You don’t understand too much. Some single words like: bestseller, best author of our time are coming to your mind, but it doesn’t matter to you. You are waiting for one answer, just one.

And it doesn’t come. Another disappointment. And your brain start thinking again. And finally, in the middle of the night your answer comes, simple and genius at the same time. Just one question have been asked, and indirect answer for your question, completely different. This magical question was: How long it took you to write your books? And answer: first one year, second one three months…

And now you know: next part was written too quick. Author hasn’t spent enough time, to make it perfect like first one. It was written in hurry. Simple like that.

Why? Was it contract, stating that next part should be written by this time? Or just craving for more money? Or simply, book was written to please readers or publishers and have been changed on the way?

No matter what the reason was, it wasn’t author’s book in 100%.

And here is the problem. For author, writting became way for earning money. And this is perfectly fine. The only problem is, that process of writting had been lost on the way. Writting became craft for craft. Book wasn’t written for having fun, doing something what was his passion. It was for any other reason. There is no more unique personality in there, something what is neccessary to perform any kind of craft. Business killed it.

That’s why here is my request (you don’t have to listen it, as I am not any kind of artist, but I need to share it with you): if you do any kind of art, make sure you keep it in your unique way. When someone offer you money for that, go for it. Just don’t forget, that you should do whatever you do for yourself first, after for any other reason. And that way your art will be always great. Just think about it: if someone offered you money for your passion, you must be great in it. So don’t change it.

Ok, this day had gotten so long already, so I am going to share short summary of two days only.
5th day’s summary:

Chapter of book have been red – checked 🙂

One HTML lesson – checked 🙂

Arabic lesson revision – checked 🙂

Plan for next day – checked 🙂

Post – written, but not posted 😦
6th day’s summary:

Chapter of book – checked 🙂

HTML lesson – checked 🙂

Arabic lesson – checked 🙂

Post on this blog – checked 🙂

Plan for tomorrow – checked 🙂
Unfortunately, it’s been raining so I couldn’t force myself to go by bike to my work, or at least walk. So being active – failed 😦

And for now I am going to take my way in my bed’s direction. I wish you all to make what you love and always be yourself. Have a productive day and I see you in my next post tomorrow 🙂

Daria

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