16th day and 17th: and again?

Hi guys,

Next two days and another fail. Completely out of control. On Saturday night, there were another terrorist incidents. The worse thing if you are alone at home and you know that your relatives are somewhere in the city. You are trying to call them, but no signal. Well, you are not the only one trying. Network is not able to manage this.

And this is what I’ve done. I’ve been sitting at home and running out of my mind. I was worrying if my dad is going to come, if my husband is safe on his way back from work. And most of all: trying to call them.

Fortunatelly they came. It has taken longer as city centre was paralised. They were lucky. But I’ve started thinking about other people. Those who’s family members or friends weren’t so lucky. Who were waiting same as I was, but they haven’t heard sound of the key in the door. They couldn’t hug their family members. They’ve recieved bad news instead.

Mostly we are thinking: “Well, it’s sad. I feel sorry for them, but it doesn’t boder me. My family was home”. But what we don’t realise, next time it might meet us or our parents, children, brothers, sister or friends. Or us. We can’t be sure for tomorrow at all. We can’t even predict, if we’ll come back from simple grocery shopping. Maybe it’ll be our last yourney?

And here huge problem comes for those of us, who will do this realisation. Because no matter what is going to happen, we need to carry on like everything is ok. Like we are going to live for ever.

Someone told: “Work like you are going to live for ever, live like you are going to die tomorrow”. I can’t remember now, who’s words are they (not mine for sure 😉 ). But this is exactly what we need to do. We are working most of the time, to make sure we can have better future or at least survive.  And we are doing this, even though we have no idea who of us is going to be alive.

All of this freezed me for a while. We are living in such dangerous time, so we are thinking about this (at least I do). But to be honest, even if we would live any time before or after all those attacks, we wouldn’t be sure as well. What is my conclusion? Life is unpredictible. Any time accidents happen, people are getting sick and we can never be sure, when is our last day going to be. We never know, if person who is just living to work or going for holiday is going to come back. But any way, life is worth living, worth fighting for better future and most important: worth being a good person.

Very often people are arguing about so silly thigs. They are hurting each other. I am doing this as well, mostly unintentionally. Or I am just getting upset with my husband or father, because they dared to breathe (I am not getting upset for breathing, but similarly “huge” deals 😉 ). But this is what it is. If something is going to happen to anyone, try and make sure, you are not having any bad emotions towards this person. For instance I was so glad yesterday, that all of us have left home happy, talking to each other and just being happy. Otherwise all this would be even bigger nightmare. This knowledge, that any of them might not come back and last memory would be huge fight. After all, they are some of the closest people to me. And I think, live is too short for fights. Especially if there is no real reason to argue. But even if there is, we should try and sort it out calmly. To make sure, there will not be any words said, we are going to regret after.

Changing subject, just a little bit, today in work I’ve been talking to one of my mates. He said:

“Daria, I haven’t belive you, when you’ve told me those terrorist aren’t muslims. Now I do.”

“What made you change your mind?” 

“Well, when they’ve been doing all those things any time, with ‘Allahu akbar’ on their lips, I was sure they are muslims. But if they do this in ramadan… even I know, it’s one of the biggest sins for muslims”.

I’ve shared this conversation just to make you understand, that by calling all muslims terrorists, people are very unfair. They are hurting all REAL muslims, who are good people, always ready to help.

Dou you know, what came to my head. Another quote, I will not bring it exactly, but the meaning is: if you want to win with any country, first damage it from inside. Strong citizens, who can work together are harder enemies, than those who are enemies for each other.

In my opinion, this is what they are trying to do. Make all of us be enemies to each other. And what is sad, they are achieving their goal. And now, it’s up to us: are we going to be strong societies, who will fight real enemies together, or are we going to destroy our countries on our own, by fighting each other instead and doing job for them?

Finishing all my thoughts, I am going to move to my two days summaries.

16th’s day summary:

Chapter of book – checked

Arabic practise – checked

Small project in HTML + CSS (started) – checked

Plan for next day – checked

Being active – checked

17th’s day summary:

Chapter of book – checked

Project HTML + CSS (finished)- checked

Being active – checked

Arabic lesson – checked

Chapter of next motivational book – checked

Plan for tomorrow – checked

Two day’s post – checked
And for today I wish you very productive day and a lot of appreciation to people who are always with you and who won’t leave you no matter what. Do all the best, that time you are spending together will be quality time, not world war.

For now I am going to sleep. I’ll see you in tomorrow’s post

Daria
P.S. Unfortunatelly my internet still doesn’t work. Router had been changed, but it looks like this wasn’t the case. But my neighbours let me use their wi-fi to keep publishing my posts so any time, they are home in the evening I’ll be able to share my thoughts and everything what had been done. I hope my internet will be sorted once for good soon 😉

And post with book will appear on next Sunday. I will do all my best to publish them every Sunday, instead of every second one. But I’ve decided to keep Sunday as a day, when they are going to see daylight (another polish saying 😉 ). I hope you’ll forgive me this delay.