As you might have realised, I became interested in the topic of self-awareness recently. At the end of the proccess, I would like to understand as much about myself, as I possibly can. I am a kind of person, who sometimes make decesion being influenced by emotions. And eventhough I was regretting it after, I couldn’t change it. Most of the time, I was not aware why I am doing it. It was just happening.
Many times I’ve heard from other people, that I behave like a spoiled child. I just wasn’t able to control some of my reactions. Especially, when someone has driven me mad. I would go on and on on a subject, till my anger disapeared and I could say my sorry. At that moments I had seriously felt like a child, the only difference was that this time no one asked me to say sorry, I just knew I went over board and this is what I should do.
And eventhough it isn’t happening to often (it is quite hard to drive me mad, luckily), but these rare events make me feel really bad about myself. So I have decided to make notes about everything connected to this situation: my emotions, feelings, even weather and my general well-being. The point of it was to figure out, what makes me loose control and blast without any particular reason (seriously, situations when it happened wasn’t as important as I used to think when I was hurting people around).
And as I mentioned before, I used to act being influenced by emotions. I think, this is something most of us is dealing with. Even if only occasionally, it is still quite embarassing, when it happens. So this is the reason, why I want to eliminate this kind of behaviours from my life. Just to be able to get over them every time, when they decide to hit.
At the moment, I am conducting a research on how to fight with them. And as soon, as I will find some ideas, I am going to share them with you.
Of course, proccess of learning about myself isn’t done. There are still many things I want to change. However, I will deal with one change at the time.
Today’s post is a short one, but I hope you enjoyed it any way. I wish you a very productive day and I’ll see you in my next post.