Today I would like to share with you some of my thoughts about priorities. I’ve heard a lot of opinions, that you can’t have a family and pursue your career at the same time. On the other hand, there are a lot of people who are managing it just fine.
If you are reading my posts since some time, you will already know it, but if you are new: I have recently became a mother to a cute little guy, who brights my life each and every day. But he provides for me a full time, unpaid job as well. If you will look at dates of my posts, you will see that I haven’t been posting regulary since some time and reasons for it are my priorities.
I figured out that the most important thing for me now is my family. But at the same time, my brain convinced itself, that I can’t be a good mother and a good wife and do stuff which I love too (one of them is writting posts for this blog). I thought about leaving my university too. Fortunately, my husband helped me while I was going through all this stuff and made me understand few things. Here are they:
Baby is a joy, not just a responsibility
Ok, I knew this. Although, they were extremely hard four months since my son was born, each time when I can’t see him for a while (when I am at work for example), make me miss him so much. All 12 hours I spend working, I just can’t wait to see my son’s cute smile when he sees me for the first time after I was away. No matter how tired I am, it is just melting my heart and I am forgeting everything. But there is also time, when I just have a feeling that everything I do now is connected to baby: feeding, changing nappies, cleaning and sterylising bottles, bathing, etc. It takes huge amount of time out of my day. Especialy, when I am after my night shift, I just sleep and look after my baby. Nothing more at all. There is no “me” time. But now I understand, that this is what I love. Waking up being exhausted, just to see smile on my son’s face, just because he wanted to simply be in my arms for a while. To see how he finaly tries to talk (I mean he thinks so, it is more of weird sounds, he is making), catch some toys with his tiny hands… These are the best moments in my life.
Better organisation is the key
And this is something what I am trying to encourage you since this blog exists, but I have forgotten about it when I needed it the most. Having a baby doesn’t mean that you are busy all the time. Babies sleep during the day too. And what you’ll do with this time, depends on you. There are many options: youtube, netfix, some games, or you can just get productive and get your stuff done. You might just take a nap, so you’ll stop be so grumpy 😉 whatever you choose, is good. Just don’t complain about this choice.
And now coming back to priorities. At the moment the most important thing in my life is family. But at the same time, I know that my son will learn by watching me. If he sees me grumpy and so unhappy about life, he will be same. This is why it is so important for me to find a balance between my career and family. Although, I can’t share any idea with you at the moment and I know it is going to be hard, I also know that I have to do this. So here I am, back after another break. I hope, that this time it is a last one.