Or maybe better welcome again? I haven’t been posting for a long long time. And here I am. With new energy and ready to start all over again.
Was it a burn out? Definitely not. There were just a lot of circumstances, which made me extremely drained and posting would make my plate over filled. I needed to put my life together first, just to be able to come back once and for good. And I can’t say I did it already, but I hope I’ve gotten on a right path finally.
But what have actually happened? Why I couldn’t find at least a bit time to say that I am alive, that everything is going on well? Let’s be honest. I could find a time for this, but before informing you, I wanted to think what to do first. No more promises, just actions. So before I’ll let you know about my plans for 2020, I will quickly give you some insight into my 2019. Here are some of the main events that changed my life:
My son was born
This is probably the most life changing thing that could ever happen – new addition to the family. This small human being, who becomes your bigger love since the day you are pregnant, the most energy draining ‘chore’ you have, like an 24 hours 7 days a week job. No holiday, no doctor’s leave.
At the end of the day, you start thinking that you can’t do it any more and again there is a crying coming from the cot. You take this little guy, who wraps his hands around your neck and fall asleep momentarily. You put him back into the cot, with “sshhhh” sound and you get a smile in a sleep. And for this one little smile, it is all worth it.
Of course, don’t get me wrong. Maternity does not contain only hard things (I mention them just to show how easy is to forget about them). There are much more good moments. First smiles, first laugh, first word… There are the times when my baby falls asleep in my arms and I can’t stop looking at his perfect face, although I am drained myself. Small little hand going in your direction, when he see you after a long time (five minutes in the bathroom is already too much 😉).
All parents out there have a clue how my child changed my life. How many new responsibilities are you getting with just a tiny human. But at the same time, my son became my biggest motivation. He is the one, who makes me get up from bed each morning; he is the one, for who I am ready to hustle, as long as I will be able to spend time with him; and finally, he is the one, who’s future matter to me.
I have moved – twice
For those who have been here for longer, you knew that I moved the home in February. However, we had to move right before Christmas too, as our old place have been sold. This was a great challenge. Especially with the little one, who finally could enjoy presence of both parents for the entire days.
I started a full time job
Also, if you have read my old posts, you know that when I found out that I am pregnant, I’ve lost my old job (officially not lost, but got my hours reduced to 3/week). So I’ve started to work during the weekends through agency and stopped whren my son was born. Having him in a NICU, we both could not work. My partner took off (unpaid), had to wait till I return to work till my son is a out of hospital and at least a bot older. But when he was around 4 months, there was no choice. We were simply not managing it. I had to go back to work in the weekend (which haven’t helped much, but was better than nothing) to finally find a full time job, which is perfect, because I work when my son is sleeping any way.
I took a gap year in my university
This time I already had too much on my plate. I was working full time at nights, looking after my son during day time. Losing two of those days each week, were just too much for me. I was missing this little guy too much. And I don’t think it was easy for him either. Yes, I am in my gap year.
Our finances went on minus
Yes, this is a hard thing. Having baby born comes with many new spending which you can’t think beforehand (especially if this is your first baby). Being unemployed and with my husband not working for good 1 month (when my son was in hospital and a bit after), forced us to borrow some money from our friends, so we could make it. We are still paying it back, but slowly getting to the point, where we are ok.
And here is the time to come to my 2020 resolutions. There are only few of them, so I can focus on them and actually be able to say that I did it. Let me just put them in a bullets today, as times goes, I will explain what some of them means to me and how I think it will help me:
- Get debt free
- Have list of projects, but focus on maximum two at the time
- Keep your bullet journal with you at all times, set up it before the time, when you are going to use it
- Have a 1 hour of “working for your future” every day
- Spend as much quality time with your son, as it is possible
- Set up a routine, which is working for everyone at home and stick to it
- Save at least £5000 by the end of 2020
These are all of my 2020 resolutions. Some of them are obvious, some will be explained in following posts. I hope you enjoyed this post. Since now, there will be one post each Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
I wish you a very productive day and I’ll see you in my next post.