Today I would like to share with you another thought of mine. I am a big fan of making lists, trying to predict as much as I can and simply: be prepared. Unfortunately, most of the time my plans stay as plans, never completed, very often just started. Although, since I remember, I always wanted to change my life. Make sure that I will never have to tell my kids that they can’t try a new hobby because we can’t afford it. I also wanted to make sure that I will get my own home, so when my children grow up, they would always have a place to call home, where all their memories will be waiting for them. I dreamed of being able to take them to many places in the world, so they can see how different, yet same, people from various counties are. I wanted to show them the beauty of nature. I wanted to teach them that it is good to stop sometimes and just stare at the sunset or the beautiful view.
Now, I have a wonderful son. Although we still live in a rented home, we can’t afford to travel the world, I can say that I am the happiest person under the sky. I watch this little guy growing, learning so many things each day and I know that I don’t need anything more from life.
And of course, I still do have all those goals in my mind. I am trying each day to make my goals and dreams to become a reality but at the same time, I know what is important in my life. At the moment, I live to be in the present time. I want to make sure, that I am showing the world to my son and watching him exploring his surrounding by himself. I want to be there, to hug him, when he falls. I want to hear every word he will ever learn. I want to show him, that money isn’t the most important thing in the world. That the most important is, who do you share it with? Memories? He will not remember that he had to move multiple time, that he was going for a holiday every second year instead of twice a year. But he will remember that time when we had the best time playing together when we made cookies together or just sat on the sofa and watched cartoons.
Didn’t I know this before? I did, of course. But just a couple of days ago I truly understood that.
Ok, so what with my New Years resolutions? They will still stay valid and I will work hard to achieve it. But first, I will make sure that my son has the best mother I could possibly be. Not perfect, as I will never be perfect. But the best I could be. My goals will be getting done after quality time with my son. Not trying to make it shorter to work on all these goals.
Wish me luck. And I wish you great progress with your resolutions if you did make a list of them. For now, I wish you a very productive day and I’ll see you in my next post.