Taking life in your own hands… Does it even make sense?

Hi guys,

If you have seen my posts in a past, you probably know that my life is a constant battle of taking control over. I keep trying to find a balance between my work life and family life, I want to get my financial situation straight, I want to keep developing, stop smoking, etc. But you must have also noticed that I never succeed. Something is happening every single time. There is stress connected to this or that and as a result, I am just giving up. With plans to resume during a ‘better time’, I let any progress be jeopardised.

After some time I’ve realised that there is no point in even trying. Whatever I used to do, something was destroying my strike of small successes. And I had to keep starting all over again. I was blaming these small ‘catastrophes’ for all the failures in my life. It stopped making sense to put any effort into changing anything. So I left everything as it was.

But how it is possible for some people to succeed and it seems like it comes to them without even trying, while some people like me cannot manage the simplest thing. Well, the answer is quite obvious: people who succeed can preserver through harder times. They can push through the obstacles and hardships in their life. I have no idea if there is anything genetic, or you get it with your mum’s milk (I’m not sure if this saying exists in English, but it does in polish). Or maybe it happens during life? Maybe, as they manage to keep going with some small things, the harder ones aren’t as hard anymore? Similarly to exercising. As you start, even running a mile might be quite an issue. However, as you keep running regularly, you’ll get the ability to run a marathon.

I don’t know the answer yet. But here I am. I am going to try and push through harder times and see if it will get easier with time. Yes, I know… You’ve heard it before. I stated a similar thing in past. Well, not once or even just twice. But this time I want to be more clever than last time (and time before that, and before that… You get the drill). This time, I am assuming, that I will not be able to carry on every single time, but at the same time, I’m not going to let it put me down. This is my goal, to be able to learn the lesson from my mistakes and failures as they will come, but at the same time be able to move on, tweak my approach a bit if it will be necessary and keep going on.

And after some time, I will let you know from my own experience, what the answer is. So here I am, getting ready for a new start and taking a challenge to finally change my life for the better.

And to make it easier for me to manage, I will have one, just one thing to do every day for one full month. After a month I will decide whether I want to keep the habit or let it go. I was thinking about what my first challenge should be and as there is a NaNoWriMo camp starting in April, I will take a part in it. And my challenge is to write at least 1500 words every day for each day of April. I will keep you up to date once a week, and who knows, maybe after I will be writing every day after that? We’ll see what my thoughts will be and if it is going to get easy as the time flies.

Anyway, this is it for today’s post. I hope you had or will have a very productive day (depending on when you are reading it). And I’ll see you in my next post.

Daria

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