Today I would like to write about changes (like it is the first time I have ever done this on this blog). I think we can all agree, that I’ve proven in my previous posts how big of a struggle changes are for me. And here I am, writing this post early morning, after a sleepless night (if someone asks, I am trying to get into sleeping at night, after years of working night shifts). Well, that change goes very well, don’t you think?
I was hoping that working during the day will fix all my productivity problems. Like a magic wand, a good night’s sleep will help me to get more energy and motivation to get simple tasks done. Out of a sudden, I will become this well-organised person, who just gets her stuff done like no one else… Oh, but I forgot that changes are a struggle. To get a good night’s sleep I need to be able to fall asleep relatively easy. But I can’t. Usually, as soon as I am falling asleep, either my son is waking up, reminding me that it is time to start our day, or I need to go to work.
Sometimes, I think about the time when I used to work in my previous job. I was exhausted, as there were not many hours to sleep during the day, but at least I knew I will sleep at least a few hours each day. At this point, I keep assuming that I don’t need to sleep during my son’s nap or else I will not be tired at night. However, in the end, I end up not being able to fall asleep at night. As soon as I lie down, I feel hungry, or I just remember that I was supposed to do this or that. On the other hand, I struggle to get anything done during the day. I am very tired and starting any task seems too daunting. When I start, it goes quite ok, but thoughts about how tired I am and how much I have to do makes me unwilling to start anything.
So here I am, trying to figure out what else can I do. Writing this post as a way of expressing my desperation? Or maybe the better world will be a disappointment? Any way… Here I am… Changes are the struggle…
But changes are also an opportunity. They allow you to grow, improve your life, and become better yourself. They are a chance for you to find out how to would be to do something differently. They get you out of your comfort zone. To summarise: changes are a struggle, but they will become normal one day. After you adjust to them they are going to be a part of your life. That makes this struggle worth going through. It will get better one day, so let’s go through this adjustment phase as well as we can and let’s enjoy changes in our life.