16th day and 17th: and again?

Hi guys,

Next two days and another fail. Completely out of control. On Saturday night, there were another terrorist incidents. The worse thing if you are alone at home and you know that your relatives are somewhere in the city. You are trying to call them, but no signal. Well, you are not the only one trying. Network is not able to manage this.

And this is what I’ve done. I’ve been sitting at home and running out of my mind. I was worrying if my dad is going to come, if my husband is safe on his way back from work. And most of all: trying to call them.

Fortunatelly they came. It has taken longer as city centre was paralised. They were lucky. But I’ve started thinking about other people. Those who’s family members or friends weren’t so lucky. Who were waiting same as I was, but they haven’t heard sound of the key in the door. They couldn’t hug their family members. They’ve recieved bad news instead.

Mostly we are thinking: “Well, it’s sad. I feel sorry for them, but it doesn’t boder me. My family was home”. But what we don’t realise, next time it might meet us or our parents, children, brothers, sister or friends. Or us. We can’t be sure for tomorrow at all. We can’t even predict, if we’ll come back from simple grocery shopping. Maybe it’ll be our last yourney?

And here huge problem comes for those of us, who will do this realisation. Because no matter what is going to happen, we need to carry on like everything is ok. Like we are going to live for ever.

Someone told: “Work like you are going to live for ever, live like you are going to die tomorrow”. I can’t remember now, who’s words are they (not mine for sure 😉 ). But this is exactly what we need to do. We are working most of the time, to make sure we can have better future or at least survive.  And we are doing this, even though we have no idea who of us is going to be alive.

All of this freezed me for a while. We are living in such dangerous time, so we are thinking about this (at least I do). But to be honest, even if we would live any time before or after all those attacks, we wouldn’t be sure as well. What is my conclusion? Life is unpredictible. Any time accidents happen, people are getting sick and we can never be sure, when is our last day going to be. We never know, if person who is just living to work or going for holiday is going to come back. But any way, life is worth living, worth fighting for better future and most important: worth being a good person.

Very often people are arguing about so silly thigs. They are hurting each other. I am doing this as well, mostly unintentionally. Or I am just getting upset with my husband or father, because they dared to breathe (I am not getting upset for breathing, but similarly “huge” deals 😉 ). But this is what it is. If something is going to happen to anyone, try and make sure, you are not having any bad emotions towards this person. For instance I was so glad yesterday, that all of us have left home happy, talking to each other and just being happy. Otherwise all this would be even bigger nightmare. This knowledge, that any of them might not come back and last memory would be huge fight. After all, they are some of the closest people to me. And I think, live is too short for fights. Especially if there is no real reason to argue. But even if there is, we should try and sort it out calmly. To make sure, there will not be any words said, we are going to regret after.

Changing subject, just a little bit, today in work I’ve been talking to one of my mates. He said:

“Daria, I haven’t belive you, when you’ve told me those terrorist aren’t muslims. Now I do.”

“What made you change your mind?” 

“Well, when they’ve been doing all those things any time, with ‘Allahu akbar’ on their lips, I was sure they are muslims. But if they do this in ramadan… even I know, it’s one of the biggest sins for muslims”.

I’ve shared this conversation just to make you understand, that by calling all muslims terrorists, people are very unfair. They are hurting all REAL muslims, who are good people, always ready to help.

Dou you know, what came to my head. Another quote, I will not bring it exactly, but the meaning is: if you want to win with any country, first damage it from inside. Strong citizens, who can work together are harder enemies, than those who are enemies for each other.

In my opinion, this is what they are trying to do. Make all of us be enemies to each other. And what is sad, they are achieving their goal. And now, it’s up to us: are we going to be strong societies, who will fight real enemies together, or are we going to destroy our countries on our own, by fighting each other instead and doing job for them?

Finishing all my thoughts, I am going to move to my two days summaries.

16th’s day summary:

Chapter of book – checked

Arabic practise – checked

Small project in HTML + CSS (started) – checked

Plan for next day – checked

Being active – checked

17th’s day summary:

Chapter of book – checked

Project HTML + CSS (finished)- checked

Being active – checked

Arabic lesson – checked

Chapter of next motivational book – checked

Plan for tomorrow – checked

Two day’s post – checked
And for today I wish you very productive day and a lot of appreciation to people who are always with you and who won’t leave you no matter what. Do all the best, that time you are spending together will be quality time, not world war.

For now I am going to sleep. I’ll see you in tomorrow’s post

Daria
P.S. Unfortunatelly my internet still doesn’t work. Router had been changed, but it looks like this wasn’t the case. But my neighbours let me use their wi-fi to keep publishing my posts so any time, they are home in the evening I’ll be able to share my thoughts and everything what had been done. I hope my internet will be sorted once for good soon 😉

And post with book will appear on next Sunday. I will do all my best to publish them every Sunday, instead of every second one. But I’ve decided to keep Sunday as a day, when they are going to see daylight (another polish saying 😉 ). I hope you’ll forgive me this delay.

15th day: voices in my head…

Hi guys,

Next day is almost finished (actually is already finished, as my clock is showing 3 am, when I am starting this post) and so many things – mostly good – happen. I was thinking to share them with you, but after I’ve decided, that this post would be too long and well… just useless for you (what kind of value it will bring to your life, if you know what I have been doing all day?). Instead, I am going to talk about something, what can happen to every one (and propably to many of you actually does).

What I am going to talk about, are voices in my head. Well, it sounds weird and some of you (if not all) might think, that I am simply mad. But I don’t mean those kind of voices 😉

Let me try to explain: imagine, you have some idea in your head. You mind was just empty and out of a sudden it was there. You are thinking it through and as more you are thinking, you are geting more and more sure, that this is brilliant idea!

Straight away you sit to make a plan, write everything what needs to be done, you are just ready to start. Feeling, that you were born to do this becomes your company. Huge, huge motivation to do some action stay shoulder by shoulder with you. First steps are done. And… here they are. Voices in your head saying: “man, what are you doing? You are going to fail, any way. Don’t waste your time!”.

Ok, you are just trying to ignore it. But no: “Do you know, how people will react? They will laugh. And not only that, they will look at you like they look at losers. Do you want that?”.

And you motivation disappears. You are starting to work less and less. Finally you give up completely. You brilliant idea seems not to be so brilliant any more.

Where are those voices coming from? Who put them there? Answer is very simple: you. You are the one, who is feeding them, who let them be more powerfull, than they actually are. But what is the worse? You are the one, who let them win. Over and over again.

So let’s look at our voices a bit closer. What they are?

Long time ago, I’ve red that everyone have his/her comfort zone (I don’t remember where I’ve red, but definetely it was in one of the books). Some environment, routine… Something what is with us every day. We can repeat it with closed eyes. And any try to move outside our comfort zone is making us feel fearfull (outside something new and unknown is waiting for us… who knows, maybe monster? 😉 ).

But on the other hand, if we’ll not leave our confort zone, we are not going to get anywhere further. Our life will never change.

So how can we fight with voices in our head? Here are some of my suggestion.

The worst thing, which can happen

This is what I am doing every time. I am making list of consequences in case of failure. And guess what? I’ve never had any monster on my list 😉

Actually when we write them, we can see, they are not so scaring like they seem to. We can just realise, that well.. nothing wrong can happen, everyone is going to stay alive 😉

And what is the other advantage of this list? Something what is completely unknown for us, is becoming something more transparent. We just feel more comfortable with it.

Make list of good things

Well, if we connect this method with previous one, we are getting clear picture of what might happen if we carry on with our activities. We can actually compare, the worst and the best scenarios. And believe me, mostly we have more to win, than to lose 😉

Is it a real problem?

If those two methods haven’t work, come back to your the worst scenario list and check every position again. And decide, whether this is real or imagined problem. For example, let’s say, you had written: “People are going to think, that I am a loser”. So thing, who are you going to do it for? For people? Does it really matter to you, what others think? And finally: is it going to harm you? Well, not really…

In my case, most of my problems are just imagined. They just don’t matter. And when I realise that, my voices are leaving me alone, my motivation is coming back again.

Sometimes, they are trying to come back. To sneak into my head, like I’ve never threw them out before. Sometimes, they even try to pretend, that they are saying what I really thing. They are coming, when my work doesn’t bring results I wish it would. But that time I am just thinking, that I can cope with them. I won before, why not again? And it’s became even easier since I’ve learnt how to work for myself. Not for any one else. Not for financial benefits. Just for the time spent on doing stuff I love. And do you know what? Now my voices became shy. Maybe they know, that for everything they’ll say, I am going to answer: “So what? I am having fun now, without you. Just go away!”. I’m not sure, but it really works 😉
I hope it will be helpfull for at least some of you. It’s nothing complicated and if you think deeper about it, you already knew it before. You just needed someone from outside your head, to say it loud 😉

Any way, let’s move to today’s summary:

Chapter of book – checked 😉

CSS lesson – checked 🙂

Being active – checked 🙂

Arabic homework – checked 🙂

Today’s post – checked 🙂

Plan for tomorrow – checked 🙂

And for now I am going to bed, as it’s already 4:20 am in London. I wish you very productive day and only won battles in this hard war with your own voices 😉 and if you have any other ways to fight with them, you are very welcome to share it in the comment section.

Mean time I see you in tomorrow’s post.

Daria

14th: are adults able to see the world the way children do?

Hi guys,

Here we are. 14th day, exactly two weeks. Unbelievable! It went so fast and I feel like I’ve done more during this time, than I have done any time before. How one simple thing, like setting up blog, can change the entire way of seeing work. Like magic, it has transfered my stuff to do into fun. I don’t even try to look for excuses any more (ok, except yesterday, but yesterday I’ve deserved some break, haven’t I?).

Any way, today I went to do some grocery shopping and I was just walking along the aisles without any deeper thoughts, when I saw (or heard, to be precized) around four-years-old boy shouting to his mum. He wants cookies. And his mum trying to explain him, that they can’t afford for it now, as she doesn’t have enough money with her. “Use your card!” he came with an idea almost straight away. Mom haven’t say anything else. Maybe she didn’t want to have show in supermarket with her son as a star, or maybe his explanation worked. Any way she just took cookies for him.

Why I am talking about this? This situation made my brain start working. My memories came to me. I don’t have my own children yet, but a lot of my cousins have and when I was living in Poland, very often they were asking me to look after their little ones. And I loved it! Not because I had an excuse to go to playground and play, without people looking at me like I’ve gotten mad (of course I’ve been doing it as well 😉 ), but because of deep conversation I used to have with my nephews and nieces. They blew my mind!

I remember one day, when we came back from walk with my five-years-old (that time) nephew. My cousin left him to me and his clothes were all in mud (he had great idea to roll down from hill. It was after rain). I said to him: “When your mum will see you, she’ll be very upset”. His answer was: “Don’t worry, Daria. You can wash them, just ask her to bring other clothes for me, so those will be for next time, when I’ll come. I am child, so I can get dirty even when I am eating. She should have known this by now.” Simple like that.

Why this blew my mind? Because children don’t care for not important things (of course they have their small problems, like someone forcing them to eat vegetables and small dilemmas like which toy to play now). They are just enjoying every moment. While adults are wondering, what people are going to say, children are thinking: “How much fun I am going to have, if I’ll do this or that?”. Isn’t it amazing?

And what ability children have, but a lot of adults is missing? They have imagination. And they don’t have anything in their mind, what would stop them to meke use of it.

I remember when I was drawing with one of my nieces. She drew red grass. I said (of course politely) that I think grass is green. She said, that in her picture is red, because tree is going to be green, so it would be too much green colour on her picture.

No matter how you think, she was right. And second thing is, it was her picture, so what’s wrong if her grass is red? She likes it.

Another great think, they don’t care what people do. They want red grass, they just make it red. No wondering, what will people say about it. Important is, what they want. No rules, no boarder. Just pure imagination.

And most of adults are doing, what I have done by saying abot green grass. They are killing childrens imagination. Something, what they’ve lost on their own (maybe same way). How many times we hear mother or father reprymending their child: “don’t do this, your clothes will be dirty” or “don’t run too fast, you’ll fall down”. When I think now, my parents never told me “don’t climb this tree” (of course when I was getting too high, they asked me to get little lower). I have fallen many times, my arms and legs were covered with scabs and bruises, but I was getting up and till now, I am still alive 😉 And to be honest I don’t remember any pain after falling, but what I remember is, that I’ve always had a lot of fun. By now, this was the best time in my life. 

And when I see situation, when mother is saying to her child not to get dirty, I feel sorry for this child (I don’t blame mother, as I don’t know, maybe her child has some health problems and it dangerous for him, but still I feel sorry). I feel sorry for all children, who are alowed to play all day on computers, smartphones, watch TV, etc. and are not encouraged to go out and play with other children. I feel sorry, if they don’t know how to ride bike, they don’t play football or generally have fun outside, because they may fall down and get bruises. I am just wondering, how they are going to cope with failures in the future, if they will not learn that now? How they are going to be prepared for beeing adult, if they will not have chance, to find out, how to be a child? And what is the most important: how they will know, how to talk to people, if in childhood the only company for them were electeonic gadgets? So basic skills, which I had learned in childhood (and I think most of us, if we were born before computers became the only activity) will be missing in their life. They’ll have to catch up.

When I visited my friend, who was punishing her son for something and punishment was that he had to stop playing his xbox for one hour (he had to go out instead) and his screaming because of thit, made me feel so depressed. Me and my brothers were begging our parents to ask us to clean all house, if we only could go for one hour out after. It was worthed for us. Being grounded was the worse punishment (I remember one time I even told to my dad, that I prefer he hit me instead of leaving me at home 😀 ).

And don’t get me wrong, we’ve made a lot of mistakes in our childhood. There were a lot of broken windows, broken bikes and hurt children, but we had chance to learn, how to take responsibility for our actions (yes, we had to work for every window, or earn for new bikes, mainly by doing extra chordes at home. When we broke our friend’s leg or arm, we had to help looking after him, and so on). But still I think, we were prepared better to start adult life, than new generations are going to be. We are not requiring anything what we do not deserve, we are not taking anything for granted (ok, most of us doesn’t), we are working hard, for everything we have (no matter if it is rented room or huge owned home, but we’ve got it, because we know, how to work).

Our parents weren’t overprotective and we are still alive. They’ve put in our heads what is right and what is wrong. Of course, they were controling us, when we were going to far with our ideas (can you belive, that when I was five or six I wanted to do bungee jump? But from fourth floor and with laundy string tighed to my leg 😉 my parents stoped me and explain why it wasn’t very best idea 🙂 ). But they let us make our mistakes, so we could feel on our own skin, what consequences we might meet after doing certain things.

And that’s it for my memories and thoughts. I don’t think all parents are overprotective nowadays. And that times changed, but please, at least sometimes control your children from far, let them fall down and get up. And don’t only reprend them. Remember, one day they are going to grow up and if the only memories with their parents will be shouting, do you thing, they are going to come to you with real problems? Or if you were in their shoes, would you? Just little thing to think about.
And now I am going to my summary 😉 :

Arabic lesson – checked 🙂

Tree CSS lessons – checked 🙂

Five chapters of book – checked 🙂

Sunday post – checked 🙂

Plan for tomorrow – checked 🙂

Today’s post – checked 🙂
For now I wish you productive day and some ability to see world the way children do (at least sometimes 😉 ).

Daria

13th day: ok, it just haven’t work…

Hi guys,

Today I am publishing yesterday’s post and unfortunatelly without any summary. I feel very bad about it, but I coudn’t help it.

So let me explain at least. As you already know, I am working in laundry company. And sometimes happen, that we are short of stuff. But yesterday it was just horrible. You might not know, but tomorrow ramadhan starts (this is islamic month, when all muslims are fasting) so because of this almost no one showed up in work. They needed to prepare (do generall cleaning, buy some frozen stuff to fry, some people are even cooking in advance, to freeze), as since tomorrow they will not be able (they will be able to eat between 9:30pm and 2:30am, plus during this time they have long prayer as well). So out of fifteen people only four was there.

This woudn’t be so bad, but a lot of our customers are halal restaurants and they got ready for ramadhan as well, sending us huge amount of clothing to be washed, ironed and packed. All that made me work for fourteen hours (not only me, all four people).

So I finished my work at 10:30 pm (usually it is 4:30). When I arrived home it was already 11. So the only thing I have done, was having my dinner, shover and I went straight to bed. I had tried to write something, but before my phone logged in, I had fallen asleep. So I am writting now, very short post, just to let you know. And today I am going to finish on time, so I’ll try to do more than usually and inform you in my evening’s post for today 🙂

So see you all in the evening and I am going back to work, as my break is almost finish. Have a good day 😉

Daria

11th day: can we change the world?

Hi guys,

Today was another shopping day, as our little household runed out of some groceries. And while standing in queue, I’ve heard two men talking (usually I don’t listen to someone’s conversation, but they were so loud, that even my headphones haven’t help me). Here is what they were talking about (not exactly, but words they were using wouldn’t go through my keyboard and I haven’t memorized exactly every word, they’ve said, so remember it’s only main thoughts):

(F)irst: have you heard about terrorist attack in Manchester Arena?

(S)econd: I’ve heard. They shouldn’t have let any muslim to Europe. It was easy to predict, that they’re going to cause problems.

F: Well, what can you do? Now damage is done.

S: If I would be deciding, none of them would be here. Not even single one.

F: Single human cannot change the world, you would do nothing…

And conversation carried on, but I haven’t listened to it any more (maybe better for me, as words, they were using – even if in front of them there were children – well, let’s say, almost every second word would be censored in every TV program) and I’ve just started my own thought proccess.

But first, short explanation: I don’t think every muslim is bad, to be honest I don’t even think, that all those attacks are caused by muslims (maybe some brainwashed, who was simply manipulated and missguided). Just make it straight, I work with a lot of muslims and only in London there are hundreds (if not thousands) of them living, so first of all, they would be able to blow whole London within seconds, just because of number of them. And as I’ve talked to my work mates, any of them is proud or happy of what had happened. Even more, they are very upset, that someone is doing something like this in the name of God. And why most of muslims will say, that terrorist cannot be muslims? Let’s make it short: purpose of living for muslim is to be as good as they can, to be able to go to paradise in hereafter. And one of very important rules is, that person who commit suicide is closing his/here way there (actually very hard punisment is going to happen to this person after death). And if you’ll go deeper into it, you can see, that this is true. And even if some of muslim would do this, we should remember, that we can’t judge whole religion, because of small group, who cause problem. We should remember, that in every group they are different people: some are good, some are bad. But this is up to each of us, who are we going to be and we shouldn’t be judged because of where are we coming from or what do we belive in. And that works in other way: our group shouldn’t be judged by what me or you, as a single person (or few of lots) have done.

But this is my opinion, I don’t want to force any one to change one’s mind. But this is connected with the subject I want to talk about. One of them said, that single person cannot change the world. Is that true?

Let me explain quickly, what I thing about it. First of all, we need to remember, that everything what we do, casue chain reaction. Very often we don’t even know, what we are responsible for.

Some time ago, I saw one advertisement on TV. I don’t remember exact chain, but what happened was, that boss shouted at his employee, than on the way back, he shouted at bus driver, bus driver did same to his wife, she rised her voice to their son, who started fighting with his friend on playground. And this last one, as it turned out, was boss’ son. And whole chain closed.

All those people got angry, because of one person and finally it came back to him as well. So maybe we can’t change whole world completely. We can’t make other people change their behaviour, but what we can definitely do, is to try give some little sun shine to every other person, who would pass it to next one, and that one to another…

And even if we can’t reach every single person in the world, we will make huge difference. But what is the best in all this: you don’t have to do anything extra hard. Very often simple smile will do, or little help given to someone in need and someone’s life will become a bitt better and more happiness will be there as well. And this happiness is going to be passed further and further.

What is the problem of today’s word? According to me the worse are invisible walls we are building every day. Walls between people, who are slightly different then we are. Just because they were born in other place, or they have different colour of skin, or their believes differs.

There is only one thing, that scares me in all that. And this thing is, that we are the one’s who cause it. Children learn from us to hate those people and love the other. I’ve never met a child, who wouldn’t play with other, because their skin colour differes or they are wearing different cloths. Parents and other adults from around children are responsible for this. And this is scaring, as this small thing is starting huge chain, which will never ever ends, if as many of us as possible won’t stop it. Just let’s try to be like those child, innocent and not wise enough (or maybe wiser, than we, adults, are) and let’s start looking at people as same as we are. And if we have to judge, judge through prism of their personality, not background.

That’s all of my thoughts for today (there were much more, but this one brought so many emotions to me, so I’ve choosen it to share with you). But please, don’t get me wrong. I am not trying to tell anyone what to do. This is my opinion. Everyone can have some other.

But because it became very serious, so better let’s move to today’s summary:

Being active: checked 🙂

One chapter of book: checked 🙂

One CSS lesson: checked 🙂

Arabic excercises: checked 🙂

Plan for tomorrow: checked 🙂

And today’s post: checked 🙂
I think that’s all for today. Like always I wish you very productive day and as much happiness as possible. Because what is amazing about happiness? Even if you share it, you still have same amout of it, it doesn’t cost you anything. But at the same time, it’s going to come back to you again, double in strength. So this is what I wish to everyone today (and not only today 😉 ).

And I’ll see you next time 🙂

Daria

9th day: because after every storm, good weather is coming… finally

Hi guys,

Today I will start my post with some announcement: finally I picked book, which I am going to write about on Sunday. And I am actually looking forward to it. While doing my research I found quite a lot of very interesting titles. I think, those posts are going to be great fun for me (and I really hope, that for you as well 😉 ). I wanted to add, that idea of doing this kind of stuff wasn’t mine originally. I have no idea how about English websites or blogs, but in polish one there are some people doing this. But I will try to do this slightly different, including myself in it. I hope you’ll like it (as these post are going to be dedicated to my readers only. I will benefit as well (by actually learning some different ways of motivation), but you are my motor in this project, for what I want to say one think: thank you).

Ok, so now let’s move to my day. Every one who lives in London knows, that today’s weather was great. Sunny and warm. Like a dream, but in reality 😉 so as I opened my eyes and realized how beautiful is outside, I had a lot of energy to use 😉

So after my breakfast I have finished my HTML course and found CSS one. Both of them are very short, as they are introducing only basis of those languages, but for the beginner like me, they are perfectly fine 😉

Still I am not very well, so I haven’t enough courage to take my bike, but I had long walk instead 😉 I went to park, where for first 20 mins I was just walking and enjoing nice weather and after I’ve sat down on grass and I’ve red few chapters of my book (which, by the way, seems to be one of the better ones). When my eyes got tired enough, I decided to do some research and find some book for my Sunday’s post (and this is what I’ve done, tomorrow I need to pick it up from library).

This activity finished my visit in park, as reality (read: hunger) came to me and I needed to do some grocery shopping, do my chores, and have my dinner  😉 .

What I’ve done after is to draw how my website is going to look like. What is going to be where and contain what. Even if it had been done on piece of paper, I am very happy about it, as this small thing is going to help me a lot, when I’ll start actually coding.

Another thing is, that I’ve done revision of my Arabic lesson and I finally got how to pronounce all letters properly or at least close to right way (my husband helped me a lot to get that right, so huge thank to him).

And I’ve prepared plan for tomorrow. Even if it’s going to be a busy day, I am looking forward to it.

But while we are talking about excitement about work to do, I will share one thought with you. Actually it didn’t come to me just like that. I’ve been asked question: “how can you be excited about work? Normal people are excited, while work is done, so they can rest. What’s wrong with you?”.

What’s wrong with me? Well, I don’t know. But what I am pretty sure about, is that it depends what goals you want to achieve and what is going to be fun for you. For example, I am trying to make my dreams such a way, that no matter if I am actually going to achieve them (of course I hope I will), as only working on them is going to be fun for me.

Maybe it’s because I am born as an introvert. I like spending time with people, but time I’m spending alone, let me stay who I really am and keeps me happy. That’s why most of my goals I need to do on my own, as for me this whole way to achieve them is giving me peace of mind. And this time on my own helps me interact with other people and be ready for compromises, as I have quite a lot of time, where only my opinion matters. No suggestion, no complains.

I know it sound very selfish. But this is true. Everyone is different, but all of us have similar roles to play in our lifes. We are workers, family members, friends, students and many, many more. And it depends on us how good we are going to be in each of those roles and every of them. And to be good in as many of them, as we can, we need to find our way. And this is my way.

Similar is with this blog. Even if after ten year only five people will read it, it will be fun for me any way. Just because only proccess of writing posts every day, makes me feel good.

This way of living was introduced to me through my friend. As every day when I was trying to contact her on certain time (it was around five hours every day) she wouldn’t answer. She was calling it her own time. And when I asked her, what does she do during this time, she said, she is doing some project, which will never be seen by world. Why? Because for her act of doing this was more important, than results. She was doing something what belongs only to her. Anyone told her, that she should do this or that different way, or she should change this and replace that. Everything was completely like she wanted. That amazed me.

Any way, let’s do today’s summary:

HTML course – checked 🙂

Book red – checked:)

Being active -checked 🙂

Arabic revision – checked 🙂

Plan for tomorrow – checked 🙂

First desing of my website – checked 🙂

And today’s post – checked 🙂
This is going to be everything for today. I wish you very productive day 😉

Daria

8th day: productivity equal to zero?

Hi guys,

Today’s post appeared even later than usually, but I couldn’t help it. When I am starting typing, it is already almost 4 am, here in London. But it has been very hard day.

As you can see title of this blog, today not too much have been done. And it isn’t only my fault. This is what I was thinking at least.

So very short view of my day: I came back from work with very high temperature and I went straight to bed. As my eyes were tearing, I couldn’t even read (actually reading was the only activity, which is going to be checked today and have been started at 2:30 am, when I was feeling better).

So I was thinking, that this is ok. No matter how we look at it, I wasn’t well. But on the other hand, isn’t this way of doing called “making excuses”? What I mean by is that I’ve thought about so many people, who’s life is hard every day. And any way, they achieved so much. And I haven’t heard them complain (at least not in interviews, I don’t know them personally 😉 ).

Who I am talking about? First person is Stephen Hawkins, for instance. I don’t think I need to introduce him to any one. He can’t move, can’t talk and any way, he doesn’t look like someone who is thinking: “Man, you can’t move, what are you doing it for? Take rest, you are not well!”.

Next person is Nick Vujicic. Man who was born without legs and arms. On the beginning he was very depressed because of his body. He thought, he is not going to do anything great, because how? He was thinking, that even everyday’s activities are going to be impossible. I am not sure, but if I am not mixing it with other story, he has even atempted to commit suicide, but he failed. And look at him now. Still he hasn’t have neither legs or arms, but he is doing amazing. I don’t know any one, who can deliver speach, which is going to be more motivating than his one. And by the way, he got married mean time and he has even a child. Isn’t that great?

And when we are talking about people, we need to mention all disabled people, who against their disabilities, are working on their passions. People, who’s live is already hard, complain less and find less excuses than we, who in eyes of society an government doesn’t have any difficulties. They are just taking life as it is and trying to make all the best out of it.

That’s why I don’t feel sad for all people, who weren’t so lucky like me and most of us. I am just impressed of them. And very often I have the thought, that we are the one, who should be called disabled (not all of us and not always, but sometimes I would call myself like that), as they are learning how to live on their own, even if this is extremely hard. They don’t give up, no matter what kind of obstacle stand on their way. And finally, they have so much courage, to face the whole world and show to other people, that they are same (actually, according to me, even a bit better).

I remember one time, I was so upset as children at scool were making fun of me, because I was the smallest. I was questioning my parents (as if it was their fault) why me? After that, I saw an interview with a girl, who lost her leg after car accident. She’s been asked if she doesn’t feel, upset about this? Her answer made me feel so ashamed. She said: “Well, in the beginning I was, but after I’ve realized, that each and every part of my body I’ve got for free. It was some kind of gift. I haven’t work for that. After this accident I became gratefull, as I haven’t lost my life. And there is a lot of people, who are in worse situation and still are doing stuff, I wouldn’t be able to do, even before I’ve lost my leg. They just haven’t given up.” (I’ve put those words in quotes, but they are not actual words of this girl. I’ve just translated main points).

That’s why I’ve decided to consider my 8th day as not productive and try my best, to make next one much better.

Very quick summary:

Few chapters of book: checked.

And for now I wish you very productive and happy day. And I’ll see you in tomorrow’s post.

Daria

7th day: can we expect unexpected?

Hi guys,

Today has been a very hard day, as I was sick all day (well, I am still sick). So after my GP appointment, I’ve spent the entire day in bed. It wasn’t too bad and still I’ve done some stuff. Obviously not so much as I wished, but better this than nothing 😉

But before I’ll procceed to this, I would like to tell you about something I’ve heard recently (I am not sure where, propably on the radio or someone told me). So it was story of one man from my city back home, who hasn’t turn out in work, because his son had an accident. He hasn’t informed his boss either, explaining that he simply hasn’t thought about this that particular time (and of course I can understand that). But what was the main point of his story, that because of this he had been fired.

His boss’ explanaition was, that he has used his days off for unexpected situations (short explanation from me: in Poland, except holidays planned in advance, you have few days off for unexpected situation and you need to inform your boss same day about fact, that you are not going to come. As far as I know, you don’t need to tell what is the reason and it depends on where you work, but usually you have up to ten days every year).

And here is my question: can we really expect, that something unexpected is going to happen, let’s say tomorrow? He used his days off before (and I have no idea whether he had any good reason or just laziness won), but could he predict, that this particular day, something is going to happen to his son?

We have saying in Poland, which we can translate like: “misfortunes always walk in company” or the other one: “if something is about to tumble down, everything will collapse at the same time” (sorry for translation, but I hope you’ve got my point). But why I’ve brought it here is, that sometimes we have many years in our live, when anything really serious happen. But the other day, we are just realizing, that it was just silence before the storm and out of a sudden evrything goes wrong. We think we’ve sorted one problem, but many more are coming almost straight away.

So can we really be sure, that ten days is enough to sort everything what might come unexpectedly?

Giving certain amount of days for unexpected things is actually a try to expect, that there will be no more of unexpected situations than let’s say our ten days. But unfortunatelly it doesn’t work like that.

And when I’ve realized that, I’ve started to feel very sorry for this man. I don’t know him, but at the time, when he really needs work, to be able to pay for his son’s rehabilitation, he loses it. While he should be able to sort it out on his own, he has to ask other people for donation, otherwise his child might not be able to walk.

This scares me actually. Not only his case, it could happen to every one. We can even have great, well-paid job, but something happen and out of a sudden we can lose people who are the most important for us and any amount of money is going to help us.

That’s why I’m requesting you, to always be gratefull for what and, the most important, who you have around you. And always appreciate what people do for you, especially your family and friends. They are the one, who helped you become who you are at the moment, so no matter how busy you are, find some time to let them feel, that they are important for you. And in case of any emergency, they will always be there, to help or just support you. Remember that.

Ok, but finishing my thoughts, let’s move to my goals.

First of all I wasn’t active today 🙁 but this time it wasn’t my fault, so I feel not too bad about it 😉

I’ve done some Arabic excercises – checked 🙂

One HTML lesson – checked:)

And I’ve red a lot – checked 🙂
It isn’t huge amount of work, but quite a lot of time I’ve spent on sleeping (today I alowed myself – getting better is important 😉 ), so I am glad of whatever it is any way 😉

And for today I am going to finish this post and I hope you enjoyed it. I wish you all very productive day and as less unexpected events (at least those bad one) as possible. Have a good time.

Daria

4th day: nothing to complain about?

Hi guys,

I was working today and what I’ve realized is, that most of my posts are started with  complaints. How hard my day was, how tired I am and stuff like this. Well, today  was quite easy day. No unnecessary stress, nothing unexpected to do. Even I’ve came from work much earlier than normally, as we’ve done all work before time came.

On my way back, I’ve done some shopping. It isn’t my favourite activity, so every time when I am going on my own, I put my earphones on and I am just thinking (by the way, sometimes very interesting thoughts come to my mind 😉 ).

Today I was thinking about money. But don’t get me wrong, not how to become rich or that it would be nice. I was wondering how it’s possible, that people who don’t have enough money to spare (actually they can’t afford for anything except paying their bills and some food) can be so good buddies. You can talk to them about everything, they are just normal. But when they get better job and their situation changes, they are changing as well.

For exaple, I had one friend. We know each other since we were little children. I am not sure, but it is possible, that when we were three or four years old (any way, since I remember we were always together). Any of us had too much money, even if we haven’t pay bills (advantages of living with parents 😉 ), but we always had something to do together. It was great time.

Everything changed when three years ago, when we were twenty three. I moved to London and after two months she has started new job. What is important: well paid job. And don’t get me wrong, I am very happy about this. The only think is, that as more money she had, as less things we had to talk about. She started doing stuff, which other people do, she is eating only food what is good to eat, just to take photo for instagram. And stuff like this. And even if this is the same person, I can’t find my friend in her any more. That is making me very sad.

That’s why please, have it in your mind, that no matter how much money you have (and of course I wish you to have as much as possible 😉 ) always remember who you are. Even if you can afford for more, you make use of it and have fun, but don’t change your personality because of that. Just keep your mindset same 😉

Ok, but let’s leave my shopping thoughts alone and come back to my goals 😉

Today as I said was good day and a lot of stuff have been done.

First and the most exciting one was my first Arabic lesson which was just great 🙂 And it makes my: learn Arabic – checked 😉

I’ve red three chapters of book, what means: website content and English improvement – checked 😀

And what I am proud of the most, is the fact, that I’ve done are two HTML lessons – checked 🙂 😀

And my plan for tomorrow is done as well – checked 🙂

And whole day today I was traveling by bike, so being active deserves for huge CHECKED 😀

And now, proud of myself, not very tired but very happy instead, because of what I’ve done today, I am moving in direction of my bed. Today earlier than usually, but as everything had been done, why not? So for today I wish you all sweet dreams and very productive day tomorrow. And just to remind you: never forget, who you are, no matter how much your situation will chenge and you can be sure: your friends are going to be grateful for that.

I see you in tomorrow’s post 🙂

Daria

3rd day: or just a little part of day

Hi guys 🙂

3rd day already finish. Or better to say, part of the day. Why? As today so many unexpected things have happened. Starting from one hour overtime. I know, that everyone may feel not well in the morning and just call to inform about his or her absence in work. But five people at a time?! This was horribly hard day in work. Luckily 5:30 came, I was still alive, so what wrong could happen?

Well, after coming home I wanted to warm up my food and my microwave just wasn’t working, so I took my bike quickly and I went to buy new one, which is going to be delivered tomorrow evening (maybe it wasn’t so big disaster, but like some people says: “without phone I am like without hand” – at least in my back home we are saying like this, I am not sure if this does exist in English – my family without microvawe is like without hand).

When I returned home again, I just couldn’t resist and I took a nap. Short, but it helped me a lot. That’s the reason, why today I’ve started my personal work late and why this post showed up late as well. And this turned my whole day into just few hours.

So today I won’t be writting too long, as tomorrow we have short of stuff as well and I suppouse I am going to need some sleep 😉

So let’s go to my activities 🙂 First thing is: I was being active, as I went to work and to the shop by bike (shop is around half an hour away from my place, I hardly got there on time 😉 ) so I think I can easily mark it as checked 😀

I wrote my review as well – finally. So my website’s content – checked 😉

And I’ve done my next HTML lesson – checked 🙂

Unfortunately I haven’t read even one chapter today and I don’t think I will, but plan for tomorrow is ready, hanged on my cork board, so I can’t do anything else as mark it as checked 🙂

Ok, I think I am going to finish for today, as it has gotten late already. I hope tomorrow, there won’t be any surprises and with this hope I wish you all good night and productive day after 😉

Daria

P.S. Today I am not going to make summary, as I was trying to write everything in one place, so let’s hope you’ll like it as well. And if you have anything you do, when something unexpected happen, please let me know. I will really appreciate this 🙂