Message to the future me

Hi guys,

Today’s post is going to be completely different than any of my posts before. I would like to share with you what I would like to say to the future me. I hope it will bring some value to you. Here it comes:

Daria!

I hope you are doing great! When you are reading it, you have probably forgotten that you’ve even written it. But here it is. When I am writing it, it is the 19th of October 2020. The world is upside down. I hope that you’ll read it at the end of 2021 and that by that time everything will return to the norm. I hope that you found a job by this time or figured out how to make money on your own.

At the moment I am not getting a lot of sleep as your son has trouble with sleeping at night. But I know this time will pass. And although there is the time when I am losing it with him, I also can’t get mad at him. I think this is the reason why little children are so cute and mothers naturally fall in love with them. Otherwise, it would be extremely hard to look after them. Maybe by now, it got much easier? But even if not, I am sure that you are doing great, just because you give all your heart and strength to give him everything you can and everything he deserves.

At the moment I have a lot of ideas in my head. There are possibilities and opportunities. It is hard to decide what to do. You probably remember that company where we worked, recently closed down. Due to pandemic, they had not enough money to keep it running. You also remember that while working there you saved some money but that your savings are getting smaller each week. It’s not easy to find a new job nowadays, a lot of businesses closed down. But slowly, everything is going to come back to the norm and all this will be another story to tell our grandchildren.

But why I decided to write this message now? I haven’t done it since childhood. Well, the answer is simple. Although I believe that there is going to be better soon, I am also aware that it hasn’t to happen by the end of 2021. A bit over a year is a lot of time and very little at the same time. At the beginning of 2020, I’ve made a new year’s resolutions. And some of them I’ve already completed, but some of them I will need to reconsider. This year has been weird and unpredictable for everyone. There was a lot of uncertainty and to be honest, it still is. But we have pushed through almost all year. Was it easy? It wasn’t. But it was worth it.

And here is the most important thing. The reason why I am writing all this. I hope, that even if it is hard, you haven’t given up. That no matter what, you are pushing through all the difficulties, that you pass through all obstacles and that there is nothing to stop you. I hope, that even if projects I am planning now to start will not work as you wish, you will keep searching for something new to do. And if they will, that success will not change you. That you will always remember who you are and what does matter in life.

I wish you good luck with everything you are doing now and I can’t wait to become you and see on my own how are we doing. I see you in about a year and keep smiling.

Daria from the past

I hope you like this kind of post and that at the end of 2021 I will be able to read it and hopefully share my thoughts with you. I wish you a very productive day for now and I’ll see you in my next post.

Daria

What I want to do before giving birth?

Hi guys,

Today is a very special day for me. I’ve managed to make up all my tasks (that’s why this post is being uploaded later that usually, but I hoped to be able to share this with you). It has been very hard two weeks and I will try and make sure that I will not get so behind any more (well, everyone is saying that my world will turn around when my son is going to be born and they are probably right). That’s why my plan for now is to prepare.

I don’t know if you remember my post about holiday where I shared some tips on preparing for taking longer break. One of the tips was to get some tasks done in advance. And this is exactly what I am going to do before delivery (which can actualy happen very soon). I have also realised that we are completely unprepared for a little human being to come, literally we have nothing. So this is the priority task for now: to equip our son properly.

I used to be very scared at the beginning, as even if I wanted a child very badly, I had doubts if we are able to cope with all new responsibilities. And I will not lie, I am still scared. I don’t think you can ever be ready for a baby. But having this small feet kicking me each day, seeing my bump moving as my baby is changing position and even playing with my son (really, it is possible to play with a baby in your tummy; I’ve never believed in that) makes me more confident. I know I won’t be a perfect mother, but the only thing I know for sure, is that I am going to do my best.

And just to ease my mind I want to have as much work done as possible. It will allow me to spend these early weeks of his life with my son, without worrying too much about things to do. Of course, I can’t do everything in advance, but at least I will sort out posts for this blog, so I can just have them ready to upload. Also episodes for my channel (with episodes is easier, as each of them is a next part of one series, so I just need to schedule them for each Friday). This will keep my projects going, without me spending time on them. When I will have holiday to look after my son.

So these are my plans for the next couple of weeks (or maybe a bit longer). I will prepare post about my planning schedule as well and it will be uploaded on Monday or Wednesday (preparing screenshots and pictures will make it a bit more time-consuming, but I hope you will like it).

So this is it for today’s post. I wish you a very productive day and I’ll see you in my next post.

Daria

Energy equals zero (days six and seven)

Hi guys,

Today’s post contains two days. This time nothing bad happen (fortunately, otherwise I would suspect, that I am magness for bad things). So let me explain what happened yesterday I’ve started coding my website, as I’ve decided I need to get some practice, not only theory. And it took me quite a lot of time (well, on the way I’ve came across some issues, my lessons haven’t cover so far and I’ve needed to search for some solutions online – thank God for internet!). And even if I’ve spend a lot of time on doing this, I gave my website look, I wished it will have.

Ok, but why there was no post? Well, I can’t say how long exactly I have been doing this (when last time I’ve checked my phone it was already five hours), as next thing I remember is lifting my head from my desk. Yeah, that happened at 7:30am. I falled asleep and don’t have any idea when. After realising what had happened, I needed to rush to work. Normaly I am leaving such a way, that when I arrive to work, I still have 15 minutes to start my job. Today I’ve arrived 1 minute before.

Ok, but was it worthed to spend at least five hours to get only home page ready? Because it’s going to be my first website, done without anyone’s help (except internet courses, of course), I think it was. I believe, that speed is going to come with some more practise.

Ok, but this is not what I wanted to talk about. Today, on my way to work, I’ve been thinking about this situation. And I think, this is unbelievable, how person can be so much into some activity, that is not able to see, how quickly time goes and how he or she is falling asleep. So I’ve made some characteristic of such activity (remember: I am not specialist, this is my opinion only). Here are some points with explanations:

  • It has to be connected with something, you are dreaming about – you need to be excited about it.

    Well, when I was starting, in my head I had picture of my website. Fact, that proccess of coding will make it become reality, that I would be able to type my website’s address and see it (every one is going to be able), made me so excited.

    Ok, on the begining I had no idea it will take so long and that I will fall asleep without any control, but I knew it won’t be easy. Any way, my excitation hasn’t alowed me to think about it.

    • You need to have something to check/prove to yourself

    In my case, I wanted to check, if all lessons I’ve done so far, will be enough to actualy design something what I want.

    Every small thing I’ve been doing yesterday cause some changes to my website: new colour, feature, or just shape. And every time I’ve refreshed my website, it looked better and better. And this assured me, that time spent on learning HTML and CSS, wasn’t wasted. Even if still I needed to find some solutions on the internet, I’ve done it on my own.

    • This activity need to be fun for you

    Ok, you might ask me now, how on the Earth sitting more than five hour in front of screen can be considered as fun?

    Well, for me it was. I had some time only for myself, I have been doing everything my way. And yes, I had a lot of fun. Not only that. I was looking forward to sit again and go to my own world – without any advises or suggestions – just me and my imagination.
    Well, I think, this is everything, what came into my mind. The only thing left is two days’ summary. So let’s move into it:
    Day’s sixth summary:

    Home page of my website (without content – I mean I have part of the content ready, but I haven’t implemented it to my code) – checked

    Chapter of book – checked

    Being active (finaly I wasn’t scared of wind causing harm to my eye and I’ve rode my bike) – checked

    Day’s sixth post – failed

    Plan for next day – failed
    Day’s seventh summary:

    Two last chapters of book + review – checked

    Being active – checked

    Implemetation of content to my website’s homepage – checked

    Today’s post – checked

    Plan for tomorrow – checked
    Ok, I think that’s everything for today. I wish you, that you’ll find something to do, what is going to help you to forget about whole world and as usually I wish you very productive day 😉 I’ll see you in tomorrow’s post.

    Daria